Friday, 14 September 2012

This month so far!

First weight in this month on Tues the 4th of September I came out of class buzzing!  Which refocused and recharged me at the beginning of that week.  I wanted to aim for the big looses again so wrote a fitness plan as well as my weekly food plan!  In my fitness plan I have also included some new classes including Pilate's and Zumba which I am enjoying!

I also started to keep a scrap book of ideas, thoughts and feeling to help me keep focused and refocus me where needed!  It includes fitness ideas and recipes to.

What do I have to do, to get back the big weight loose? try new recipes and stop picking at the wrong foods and to have more self discipline!  This means my attitude and habits have to change!

I also need to remind myself of what I have achieved! I have lost over two stone and have kept it of....something I have never achieved so far!  When I have done other plans, my biggest draw back was not staying to group, but I have this time and have never missed a meeting so far (is it becoming a good crutch?) so much so that our annual holiday is going to be in this country so I can still attend a slimming world group!  I have also made some really good friends, that I hope will last a lifetime!

Need to also remind myself that I am loosing the weight for myself and no one else and I have to do it to be able to ride again!

A technique that I am going to try is to use the power of the voices in my head  to talk myself out of wanting the things that are going to affect my weight loss.

I had a big challenge on Saturday the 8th as went to Blenheim Horse Trails (burger vans etc) so I had planned ahead food wise and was very good, until I got home and went to the pub and had 6 vodkas (15 syns) and a bottle of wine (24 syns).

Unbelievably on Tues the 11th I recorded a loss at weight in, but since then I haven't really been motivated!  I have tonight done a thought chart on why I started this journey, what I have achieved so far and what I want to achieve by Xmas

Monday, 3 September 2012

Self Esteem

“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.” 
― Marilyn Monroe

“Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life, but define yourself.” 
― Harvey Fierstein

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection” 
― Siddhārtha Gautama

“When you're different, sometimes you don't see the millions of people who accept you for what you are. All you notice is the person who doesn't.” 
― Jodi PicoultChange of Heart

“The worst loneliness is to not be comfortable with yourself.” 
― Mark Twain

“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” 
― Siddhārtha Gautama

I care for myself. The more solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I will respect myself.” 
― Charlotte BrontëJane Eyre

“There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore.” 
― Laurie Halse AndersonWintergirls

“That's what real love amounts to - letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending - performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act - and the sad thing is, people get so used to their image, they grow attached to their masks. They love their chains. They forget all about who they really are. And if you try to remind them, they hate you for it, they feel like you're trying to steal their most precious possession.” 
― Jim Morrison


Self-esteem

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Self-esteem is a term in psychology to reflect a person's overall evaluation or appraisal of his or her own worth. Self-esteem encompasses beliefs (for example, "I am competent", "I am worthy") and emotions such as triumph, despairpride and shame[1]. 'The self-concept is what we think about the self; self-esteem, the positive or negative evaluation of the self, is how we feel about it'.[2] A person’s self-concept consists of the beliefs one has about oneself, one’s self-perception, or, as Hamlyn (1983: 241) expresses it, "the picture of oneself". Baumeister (1997) described self-concept as totally perception which people hold about him/ herself (p. 681). It is not the "facts" about one-self but rather what one believes to be true about one-self (Sarah Mercer, p. 14). Early researchers used self-concept as a descriptive construct, such as ‘I am an athlete’ (Rosenberg 1979).
Recent theories adapted self-esteem with more evaluative statements like ‘I am good at tennis’ (Harter 1996). The latter statement not only describes the self, as the individual identifies herself or himself, but evaluates the self by putting worthiness on it. Therefore, self-esteem is defined as both descriptive and evaluative self-related statements. As a social psychological construct, self-esteem is attractive because researchers have conceptualized it as an influential predictor of relevant outcomes, such as academic achievement (Marsh 1990) or exercise behavior (Hagger et al. 1998). In addition, self-esteem has also been treated as an important outcome due to its close relation with psychological well-being (Marsh 1989). Self-concept (i.e. self-esteem) is widely believed to be composed of more than just perceived competence, and this leads to the relative degree of evaluative and cognitive beliefs of the construct.
Self-esteem is viewed as the most evaluative and affective of the three constructs (Harter, 1999a). Overlay, self-concept is considered as the beliefs about perceived competence and self-evaluative in a specific domain. Self-esteem can apply specifically to a particular dimension (for example, "I believe I am a good writer and I feel happy about that") or have global extent (for example, "I believe I am a bad person, and feel bad about myself in general"). Psychologists usually regard self-esteem as an enduring personality characteristic ("trait" self-esteem), though normal, short-term variations ("state" self-esteem) also exist.
Synonyms or near-synonyms of self-esteem include: self-worth,[3] self-regard,[4] self-respect,[5][6] and self-integrity. According to The American Heritage Dictionary of the English Language, "self-love" is "the instinct or desire to promote one's well-being";[7] while La Rochefoucauld considered 'that amour-propre (self-regard) is the mainspring of all human activities'.[8]

Low self-esteem

Low self-esteem can result from various factors, including a physical appearance or weight, socioeconomic status, or peer pressure or bullying.[22]
Low self-esteem occasionally leads to suicidal ideation and behaviour. These can include self-imposed isolation, feelings of rejection, dejection, insignificance, and detachment, and increased dissatisfaction with current social relationships. A lack of social support from peers or family tends to create or exacerbate stress on an individual, which can lead to an inability to adjust to current circumstances.[23] Drug abuse and forms of delinquency are common side effects of low self-esteem.[24]
A person with low self-esteem may show some of the following characteristics:[25]
  • Heavy self-criticism and dissatisfaction.[17]
  • Hypersensitivity to criticism with resentment against critics and feelings of being attacked.[17]
  • Chronic indecision and an exaggerated fear of mistakes.[17]
  • Excessive will to please and unwillingness to displease any petitioner.[17]
  • Perfectionism, which can lead to frustration when perfection is not achieved.[17]
  • Neurotic guilt, dwelling on and exaggerating the magnitude of past mistakes.[17]
  • Floating hostility and general defensiveness and irritability without any proximate cause.[17]
  • Pessimism and a general negative outlook.[17]
  • Envy, invidiousness, or general resentment.[17]

Tuesday, 21 August 2012

Wow, what a month so far!

This month started with a bang this month! Lost a total of 6 pounds in the first 2 weeks, but put on 4 and a half pounds on last week.  I am not upset or obsessing over it!  Why? Because it was all my own doing and enjoyed every minute of it!  I had a week of and spent every night at the pub and also celebrated my birthday on Saturday!

What am I going to do about it this week?  Stick to plan, exercise everyday and write everything down.  I need to loose what I put on and more!  I must do it!

Exercise plan for the week!  Wifit tomorrow and Thursday am,  then gym and or swimming on Friday through to Monday.  Plus also allotment and helping out at the show on bank holiday Monday!

Sunday, 29 July 2012

Highs and lows

This week has been a week of highs and lows!  My main high was my weigh in on Tues when I hit my first goal of loosing two stone.  Other highs include having been to the gym and swimming and I even managed 30 lengths today. Lows have been going out 2 times this week and drinking far to much alcohol and lacking self discipline which the chocolate that is sat in the cupboard.

But tomorrow is another day and I am going to be really good and I am even going to the gym again after work!

Trouble is I have relaxed to much after such a big loss and lacked a bit of self discipline this week.  Just got to remember why I am doing this!  I will get back on a horse again!

Saturday, 28 July 2012

Self Discipline


self-dis·ci·pline (slfds-pln)
n.
Training and control of oneself and one's conduct, usually for personal improvement.

The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition copyright ©2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Updated in 2009. Published byHoughton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.

self-discipline
n
the act of disciplining or power to discipline one's own feelings, desires, etc., esp with the intention of improving oneself
self-disciplined  adj
Collins English Dictionary – Complete and Unabridged © HarperCollins Publishers 1991, 1994, 1998, 2000, 2003



Yesterday I totally lacked self-discipline, hence the reason for today's blog with the same name.  I went out with the intention of just having one wine last night, as I had already used up the days syns (on chocolate), but one led to another, which then led to more!

Here is an interesting link, which has some tips and ideas that may help (some I could change slightly)!
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/health/wellbeing/5899818/How-to-improve-your-self-discipline.html#


Also take a look at this
http://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/self-discipline/

and this
http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2005/06/self-discipline/

Saturday, 21 July 2012

Empowerment!

em·pow·er  (m-pour)
tr.v. em·pow·eredem·pow·er·ingem·pow·ers
1. To invest with power, especially legal power or official authority. See Synonyms at authorize.
2. To equip or supply with an ability; enable: "Computers ... empower students to become intellectual explorers"(Edward B. Fiske).

em·power·ment n.
Usage Note: Although it is a contemporary buzzword, the word empower is not new, having arisen in the mid-17th century with the legalistic meaning "to invest with authority, authorize." Shortly thereafter it began to be used with an infinitive in a more general way meaning "to enable or permit." Both of these uses survive today but have been overpowered by the word's use in politics and pop psychology. Its modern use originated in the civil rights movement, which sought political empowerment for its followers. The word was then taken up by the women's movement, and its appeal has not flagged. Since people of all political persuasions have a need for a word that makes their constituents feel that they are or are about to become more in control of their destinies, empower has been adopted by conservatives as well as social reformers. It has even migrated out of the political arena into other fields. · The Usage Panel has some misgivings about this recent broadening of usage. For the Panelists, the acceptability of the verb empower depends on the context. Eighty percent approve of the example We want to empower ordinary citizens. But in contexts that are not political the Panel is markedly less enthusiastic. The sentence Hunger and greed and then sexual zeal are felt by some to be stages of experience that empower the individual garners approval from only 33 percent of the Panelists. The Panel may frown on this kind of psychological empowering because it resonates of the self-help movement, which is notorious for trendy coinages.


empowerment [ɪmˈpaʊəmənt]
n
1. the giving or delegation of power or authority; authorization
2. the giving of an ability; enablement or permission
3. (Government, Politics & Diplomacy) (in South Africa) a policy of providing special opportunities in employment, training, etc. for Blacks and others disadvantaged under apartheid
Collins English Dictionary – Complete and Unabridged © HarperCollins Publishers 1991, 1994, 1998, 2000, 2003

The above have been copied and pasted from http://www.thefreedictionary.com/empowerment

I have realised in the last couple of days how important empowerment is when you are on a healthy eating plan, to loose weight.  Why have I come to this conclusion?  I went out last night to meet up with friends at my local, and I always end up having far to much to drink, which affects my weight loss.  Last night I gave myself permission not to drink alcohol and drunk diet coke instead and which left me enough syns (part of the slimming world plan) to have a packet of Quavers instead.

This afternoon I went to the gym and had a really good session, and did 1.1km on the cross trainer (in 20 mins), followed by weights and then in 10 mins on the treadmill I did 1.05k.  I then went for a swim and managed 24 lengths today.  My fitness level is improving and I am now looking forward to doing the race for life tomorrow and I might even go for a swim afterwards.







 

Buddha

These are all so true, please take time to consider them when you are trying to loose weight!





Wednesday, 18 July 2012

Time to get back on track, part 2!

I can't believe it's been so long since I last wrote an entry.....since the end of April I have sort have been cruising along and staying roughly the same weight.  Last week we had a different consultant at my Slimming World meeting as our normal consultant was away on holiday.  Lets just say she was the bitch from hell and she made me feel like a bit of rubbish (just trying to be polite and not be dragged down to her level!).  She laid into me for about 20 minutes.  Any way due to this I relaxed a bit last week and only put on a pound, which I'm happy with as I enjoyed myself!

But I'm so glad I went back to group last night it was so positive and chilled thanks to the girls! (You know who you are).

Since my last post I have still planned my meals on a weekly basis and have started to enjoy cooking again, but the last couple of days I have started to write down everything that passes my lips, so I will be absolutely mortified if I haven't lost weight this week.

What do I need to do to help me with my weight loss journey:
1) Take one day at a time
2) Write down everything I eat
3) Do I need that glass of wine?
4) Enjoy what I'm eating and If I don't like it, don't have it!
5) Realise when I am full up
6) I can have a treat (I had ice cream and fruit for desert, which was lovely).
7) Take responsibility for my actions
8) Visualisation.....3 times a days how do I perceive what I look like now and how I want to look in the near future
9) Being more positive

Why do I want to loose weight?
1) To be able to fit into smaller clothes
2) To look nicer
3) To reduce my blood pressure
4) To be able to ride again
5) To be fitter


Why I wouldn't want to loose weight?
1) I see it stopping me going out and socialising as I can't drink as much

Race for Life
I am taking part in this on Sunday, at 11am in Prospect Park in Reading.

Here is my link.....so please please sponsor me
http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/lucyjohnson406

I am doing the 5k challenge and I am not fit enough to run all the way round but I will complete it an am also looking at going to the gym and swimming over the weekend to.

How am I feeling now?
I have now got that positive feeling and am eager to achieve a weight loss each week, no mater how small...it is achievable!  Just need to keep that focus and enjoy doing it.  There was a very good line in the following article:
http://www.rd.com/health/diet-weight-loss/easy-ways-to-lose-weight-50-ideas/
Its the line about ice cream being the jewel in the crown and fruit being the crown!  That's so true and I read it after I had dessert of fruit and 60g of Ice Cream (5 Syns for those of you that are currently following the Slimming World healthy eating plan).

Hypnosis
I have got a Hypnosis app on my phone which I used for the first time in a long while, and I selected the weight loss and confidence session combined, which helped be to relax and I had a brilliant nights sleep